Thu, 22 Sep 2005 19:25:27 GMT

yeah so today im staying home because get this shit.. yesterday the teacher asked me if i wanted to go on a field trip && i asked well whos going to be there? and she said lexi..so i said nah i dont wanna go.. && so then i come home and i was mad about the whole lexi shit cause I DONT have to be friends with ANYONE i dont fucking want to be friends with, and then the teacher calls and says "Oh meaghan, you have to go on the feild trip or else you`ll get ISS" & that makes no fucking sence! they know i dont want to be alone with lexi & the other girls dont have to go! & plus im not even in world history so i shouldnt have to go ! rawrrr! So now ill tell you what happened yesterday & i dont give a shit if im not suppose to bring it out of school, she did, and its my life so i can tell whoever the fuck i want. So there's this girl lexi and i dont want to be friends with her for many reasons. she screwed me over tons last year, and she dresses in skimpy clothes, and i just dont want to be around someone like that. so her friend marjorie said can you please not talk to meaghan she doesnt really want to talk to anyone. and lexi couldnt just fucking leave it at that she started calling me, then crying to her boyfriend trying to start DRAMA. as usual. and im like WTF?! why does she have to fucking start shit, if i dont want to be friends with someone i shouldnt have to be, its my life, but last year i ignored her, and she still tried talking to me, then i said it nicely, and she STILL talked to me, then i SCREAMED and flipped out on her, and she still talked to me, its like SHE DOESNT GET IT. she wont fucking leave me alone! shes smothering! she doesnt get that she cant force anyone to be her friend, if i dont want to fucking talk to her she needs to just shut the fuck up about it. and i dont even hate her! but its like, shes trying to make me hate her or something! i HATE when people act close to me, and follow me around, and dont give me space, and she hardly knows me and she was doing that and it freaks me the fuck out, so i think from now on i have to be straight up about it and just ignore her no matter how much she doesnt shutup and try to be friends cause its pissing me off. so yah, thats basically it...ill update some more later.

pictures from today :]

p.s cats are mean..

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